The Start of My Weight Loss Journey

Where do I start…well, I am overweight. There are no two ways about it. I have gone from a size 8 to a size 20 in 3 years. I feel like a bloated hippo. Left-hand photo is me now and the right 3 years ago when I met my husband

It was never my intention, it rarely is anyone’s intention to become overweight but for those not lucky enough to have a high metabolism have medical conditions or let’s be honest self-control things can quickly escalate without, at first, batting an eyelid.

Before I met my husband I regularly went to the gym, I ate ok but to be honest I didn’t eat a hell of a lot. So yes, I was slim but I wasn’t healthy. I drank a lot at the weekends, when my daughter was with her dad, stayed up for a day or two, then the working week would begin so the whole cycle would start again. Of course, when my daughter was with me I was miss sensible.

When I met Ro, my husband, I found the joys of food. Ro is an amazing cook, cooking everything from Indian food, Japanese or any cuisine you can think of. I have done on numerous occasions blamed him for my weight gain. However, Ro is not the one who gave me seconds or big portions it was all my doing and I take full responsibility for it.

I don’t snack, I don’t sit there stuffing my face all day with crap, I have literally just overeaten with big portions and high-fat foods. My biggest downfall and is sugar. I have such a sweet tooth. I would use 4 teaspoons in one coffee and would have up to 5 cups a day. Right there are huge calories…

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People always think someone who has weight gain must eat and eat, probably in some cases they do but, in my case, and many other cases we become bigger due to a medical condition we had previously under control or a new medical condition that presents itself. Not all people who are overweight are so due to overeating without reason.

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I have a condition called Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome, (PCOS). I was diagnosed with the condition when I was 16 and it has ruled my body ever since. The symptoms are pretty shit such as spots, skin tags, lack of periods or bad periods when they do arrive, excessive hair growth, fertility issues, weight gain to name but a few. I also suffer from depression and anxiety, I know I am such a ray of sunshine. Depression has a huge impact on your day to day life and the way you control your environment.

Unless I look after myself and exercise the result is what I have become…

The Game Changer

Ro and I had taken my daughter into London for the day, looking forward to a full day of sightseeing and fun. We left around 9am got into London and after an hour of walking around a museum, I began to struggle. I started to feel tired, my feet hurt so bad I could barely walk. I was getting out of breath and I felt like an 80-year-old rather than someone in her late 30’s.

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I felt so ashamed, so I kept quiet. I found any excuse I could for us to be able to sit down but by 3pm I was done I was just so tired. At that moment seeing the disappointment in my daughters face that we needed to go home, I realised my weight issue was no longer just affecting me but those around me.

I had never realised just how much the weight was affecting my health, never realised the things I used to take for granted like being able to shoot up the stairs, run or walk for miles was now literally impossible. It was at that moment I realised I had to change my lifestyle and I needed to do it now.

Taking charge

The biggest step with any transformation journey is to first own it. Admit to yourself the problem you have and what you want to do to change it. I am obese I am fat; these two words bring a lot of different reactions from people. Some feel these words shouldn’t be used as they will hurt the feelings of the majority. I am not using these words to describe anyone but myself.

I had to come to terms with this to be able to take the step to change. Rohit had never said those words to me, but when he heard me use the word obese he knew I was ready to hear him say it. Those words fell from his lips and hit my ears like a speeding train.
I knew I had to change I had to make myself healthy. You see its not just the fact I am overweight anyone can see that but its also the damage I am doing to my body in the inside. That is the real scary part.

Motivation

With my depression I knew it would be hard for me to get motivated some days and going to the gym for me at the moment was a no as I am so self-conscious. I decided to look for a personal trainer. This is not easy, as you have to find the right trainer for you. I went through a few and I didn’t feel like they were working me to the potential I had. Got bored with them there was no connection, and that is so important as you are spending so much time with them.

Then I found Louise…..

My Personal Trainer

I have been seeing Louise for 6 weeks and I have lost a stone and already building so much muscle. The centimetres are just dropping off. Louise has done so much for my confidence and given me even more of the determination I needed to confront my journey head on.

Louise Glover @ Body By Louise

Finding Louise has been my saviour. I absolutely love spending time with her and she works me to the point of pain and exhaustion but that is exactly what I wanted.

Louise has been a Personal Trainer and Nutritionist for over 5 years and a professional model for over 15 years working as a commercial and fitness model.
Louise is so fantastic to work with, she works you hard and pushes you to bring out the strength and determination that has been buried away in you.

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You will hear a lot about Louise as she will be joining me occasionally and making some special appearances.

The Journey

I want to share my journey as I want to be able to share the highs and lows of my fitness life. I am not perfect I will have days where I eat something I shouldn’t or don’t exercise but I want to be honest, so others can see its ok, even on your bad days you’re doing great and really that’s all any of us want to hear.

I will share once a week my food and exercise diary and how much I have lost in centimetres and in weight.

I will post videos of good days bad days and everything in between.

Let’s do this……

And follow me on instagram @thedword1

 

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And so it begins…

Welcome to my blog

The name is Denise I am a mum, wife, entrepreneur and in all honesty, a little bit batshit crazy, but who isn’t!!

I decided to write a blog as I have so much going on and I thought there must be other women who have the same thoughts, weight issues, work issues as me and who probably sit there and think ffs is it just me, am I the only who feels like I’m either not doing good enough or just putting too much pressure on myself to be perfect.
I have made the big step of starting up my own business. I gave up work in April 2017 to move from Bristol to the big smoke, the crazy city we call London Town…………Although I miss the calm of Brizzy London has so much more to offer especially for my husband’s business. We started off in East London, but I didn’t love it as I wasn’t used to the London life, so we then moved to Essex with only a 35-minute commute to central London but living the country life all was lovely jubbly.

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Settled, thoughts turned to, I really can’t be a housewife my brain is going to explode with boredom, but the thought of going out to work depressed me.  I don’t want limited holidays, I want to be able to do the am and pm school runs, I don’t want to be part of the whole office politics, I want to be my own boss where I make the rules but can still be awesome doing the thing I love.  The more and more I thought about it the more it appealed.  It would be perfect. So the journey begins for the business start-up.

I am sure many mums would love to work from home who think like I used to, I can’t do it, you can, and that’s why I am going to be sharing my journey.

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Apart from the work side of things I am planning a wedding………….aww I here you say or, I thought she said she is married!!! Don’t worry I don’t have a handful of husbands, god could you imagine. One is way more than enough J

My rather gorgeous husband,  Rohit or “toyboy” as he is known, well not for much longer as he turns 30 in November haha, is Indian.  Born in Leicester raised in Nottingham he is the Ying to my yang.  We got married in a very small civil ceremony two years ago, just us and 7 others including our daughter.

It was perfect. Now until I met my other half I never realised how big Indian families are, and he’s is huge…..200+ is the guest list so far, and this is before friends have even been invited.  I just want to cry.  We are having ourselves a Hindu Wedding, yey………..

Hindu weddings are a huge affair with some lasting a whole week.  So many different traditions etc So going to be sharing this with you including some videos on the castles, yes castles, Ro loves a Castle, we visit for our venues and written blogs on the whole shebang.

I will also be looking at all things wedding related to helping you organise the wedding of your dreams!!

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Now I am going to be honest………….In the last 3 years, I have put on so much weight I feel and look like a bloated whale with constipation.  I have ballooned from a size 8 to a size 18, and I absolutely hate it.

Now I am not a food hog I don’t sit down all day and stuff my face with endless goodies and chip butties far from it.  I just became lazy in the sense I became loved up with the “toyboy” stopped exercising and controlling my PCOS, Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, having bigger portions of dinner and I thought meh I got this……….Big mistake, huge, epic, why, because I didn’t have this and as the weight piled on I was like yeah I can lose this and then it just spiraled.

Now I only have myself to blame, and slightly the “toyboy” as he is such an amazing cook it’s ridiculous but I only I can change the way I look and how I feel.  I have lost my confidence but I am now taking control and sharing with you wonderful peeps will help me, even more, achieve my goals and possibly give myself some motivation.

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I have now hired myself a Personal Trainer.  Love to hate the woman as she looks fabulous.  The reason I hired her is because I hate her…………in a good way, motivational like.   Louise is a fabulous Personal Trainer, and I will introduce you to her a little later on.

So follow me on this momentous, I say momentous due to the extra stone that has selfishly and rudely clung to my body like cellophane to a lump of meat, occasion and let’s see if I can live through the pain Louise inflicts on me.

And……………..finally the hubs and I love a bit of traveling, so when we go we will find the best places to visit, best ways you can save and eat like a queen/king.

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You may also get to see the crazy pup we have in our life too that keeps us on our feet.

I really do hope you will join me on my little journey.

In a bit………….

Denise x